Hopeful Despair I
Michal
Jorden was one of those normal men. Being ordinary is one of the greatest fears
of an Everyman. They fabricate themselves as heroes, explorers, adventurers,
celebrities, spies or men in suffering or damsels in distress. Each has their
own versions of boogiemans and horrors. Their mentality shapes their monsters.
But you can suppress all that and live your ordinary lives. Glitches
do happen. But you can tell yourself that you have gotten it wrong or made a
mistake. You think there is a solid objective universe around you which you are
a tiny insignificant particle of.
Michal
lived in a town called Silent Hill. It was named after the popular survival
horror game. The game series had helped him a lot. He was one of the activists
worked to make the town a tourist attraction by making it look like a decaying
town of slumbering horror. It was all just made up. There was no cult or some
supernatural forces. Some talked about some mystic groups camouflaged as
tourists doing some secret experiments in the woods. Michal was excited and
enthusiastic. But like any ordinary man, he did what he is supposed to and
branded them as fantasies and stupid misleading bit of info.
Now
looking at a huge hole in the middle of a secret facility in the woods he felt
the lines of reality being blurred. He tried to recall. He shook his head. He
couldn’t even remember who he was. He felt his life fading away. His hero
fantasies were being awakened. The whole town had gone insane in various kinds
of ways. But all felt settled because it seemed to be the contemporary norm.
Michal was looking at a 40 year old letter written by a girl named Heather from
his family and there was a spot marked and he went there hoping for something
to happen.
Some
scientist looking people, workers and townspeople were drilling a hole with
some advanced equipment. After 15 minutes of hiding and waiting, he went and
jumped down. The jump hurt his legs really bad. The surroundings were freshly
destroyed. He heard noises. It was all too creepy. But somewhere inside, he had
been wishing for something like this.
All
the desires and fantasies submerged within him were coming out. Michal was
never the guy expecting for big things like winning a half a billion dollar
lottery. He had his head filled with monsters shaped after the real beings he
knew out there. The facility looked too modern for something that was built 40
years ago. But Jorden never cared.
He
had heard about a group called Exodus. He didn’t remember where he got that
info. He suspected the guys with cool guns to be ones from that group. Michal
sneaked to the second floor as silently as possible, trying to stay out of the
notice of the Exodus. He saw the remainings of the walls and floors after some
sort of a divine like battle. It was not just eerie but also terrifying.
He
sensed someone coming. There was no place to go. He jumped onto the floor
below. The pain numbed his legs. But he managed to crawl into a hiding. Now his
fear of death was at the highest intensity. His town had become the creepiest
and the spookiest place on Earth. He has gotten himself into the middle of a
one big brawl of titans. He is now completely powerless. His thirst for
adventure had screwed himself up good. Maybe that’s his way of way of letting
his insanity loose.
When
he could stand up, he saw 2 Cannibals. He saw the danger and ran as silently as
he could. All his fantasies and horrors and fears were flooding the upper parts
of his consciousness. Then he bumped into a sexy nurse. She was actually about
50 but was dressed like a 20 year old doing cosplay. She wore a tempting makeup
with bright red nail polish, bright red heels and white sticking. Wrinkles
appearing with her seductive smile and the look of the blonde’s hands still
spoke of her age.
“Hey boy, it’s an unauthorized place to be.” Spoke
the nurse.
Michal
traced some of his memories. He remembered what he felt as a 12 year old. He
had this bombshell cousin who was really nice and kind to him. She was a nurse.
He had lot of guilty pleasures fantasizing about her. He thought that it’s
wrong to do so. But he couldn’t’ stop and finally got engulfed in guilt. He got
disgusted of hospitals. Nurses became sex objects that he wanted to stay away
out of a feeling of guilt.
Michal
was now looking at the nurse’s ample cleavage of 36DD cup boobs while admiring
her curves. The nurse adjusted herself for a better view for him while making
her look more live. She had sprayed both lavender and rose perfumes on her
body.
“You seem terrified. Things have gone hot and nuts
after that incident.” She talked touching the edges of her clothes and pressing
her long red nails into her skin making slight red marks on her pearl white
British skin.
“I hope you are not in for a wet job.” She expressed
a slight pain as she was dangling her fingers over her vagina. She was looking
at Michal's lips giving him ample opportunity to explore her face.
The
thought of the Cannibals and the Exodus group grew fear inside of him. The
mixture of fear, sensuality, guilt and the fear of unknown hypnotized him. Now
he didn’t know what to do but to go with the flow. One can say it was losing
self totally and falling onto despair. But for Jorden, it was a grotesque path
leading to hope and salvation.
“You
are a lost child, aren’t you? Here, come I’ll protect you from the monsters.
You haven’t even seen the big ones yet.” She never touched him. She was always
teasing and pinching herself. She slowly turned brushing her legs on each
other. Her nipples were stiff and they were slightly pointing out through her
uniform. A bit of some transparent liquid fell on her stockings making them
wet. She made barely hearable moans as she walked. Michal walked behind her
expecting a cat walk from her. But she kept some distance between her feet.
She
stops for a moment and said that it feels difficult for her. She asks to hold
her and guide her in the way she desire. Then she looks at the face and into
the manly eyes. “Oh, I’m asking too much, aren’t I? You are too… nervous. Let
me just grab you from the hip and the belt. You just lead me. We’ll take care of
each other.”
She
guides Michal through the hallways while clinging to his waist. Her footsteps
don’t echo though they are sharp. The footsteps hear at each 4th and
6th heartbeat. Her nails dig into the skin through the shirt each
few seconds. She walks like she is barely holding the effects of a drug. She
keeps on with the slight moans and she is totally out in the blur. She can’t
even keep her hands at one place. It’s like she is barely holding up her
wilderness.
She
leads Michal to some sort of a medical and research room at a corner of the
floor which was guarded by tight analog security features than can sometimes
even outperform the digital counterparts. She jumps onto a bed and says “I’m
Miranda by the way.” Jorden wasn’t in a mood to savor her juiciness anymore.
His feet were being drowned in a swarm of objectified despair and insecurity.
The
room was connected to few more rooms and was equipped with high tech state of
the art equipment for any medical need or research which can even perform with
minimal computer interaction in an emergency. The rooms were filled by corpses
of humans, ex−humans and horrifying creatures that Jorden would
feel satisfied running away from. All these things were experimented in the
craziest ways. Someone had been toying with the body parts. Some corpses had
been dissected while they had been still alive. They had been kept alive and
warm until that certain someone enjoys her/his time with the body.
There
were video tapes (yes, tapes). Jorden could think of what they had been used
to. He had simply found sanction in a horror house. Trance music was being
played on a cassette player. He heard high heels hitting the floor. The nurse
extended her arms to touch and take Michal to closer proximity. Then she
stopped at about 6−7 millimeters from physical contact. Then
she traced a triangle wither eyes looking at Michal from one eye to the lip and
then to the other eye and took a long step close. “MI−RAN−DA… be polite and introduce yourself” “Michal Jordon”
came the instant and wavering reply.
It
was the ideal despair for Michal Jorden to get out of his ordinary life. It was
self-exploration and letting out deep hidden fantasies, emotions, frustration
and last but not least… personalized insanity.
Miranda
took the cassette player and played with the earphones as if it is a whip. Then
she started hinting something out. “Do you know when different beats are heard
from the two of your ears, it creates a completely different frequency inside
your head? Every check those stuff on YouTube? You can be stimulated and mani−somehtinged by these frequencies changing the
being you are. By the way, do you know that all my professors including the
ladies were frustrated because they couldn’t amp up my results beyond the A++s
I already had. The extra entertainment they received felt like something
received through begging for them. My assistant somehow got his 5th
PhD as he wasn’t too bored with the ease of these things. He doesn’t even
understand the scientific value and beauty of these surroundings. So I even experimented
on what’s wrong with him?
Chills
run through Michal’s spine and Miranda fixes the earphones on Michal’s ears. Her
face looks expressionless and her eyes look hypnotic. She starts dancing around
Michal making him feel his jeans to be too tight. Miranda starts dancing around
Michal. Michal succumbed to his favorite horror and started seeing behind his
head. His visual range was now 270˚; not 180˚. He could see his head which is something he had seen in two things
which were some NDEs and over the head 3rd person POV games.
Then
he saw some excessively stealth being knocking him down. He decided to call in
a carbon based silicon life. He couldn’t realize how he was seeing himself
while he is knocked unconscious. The humanoid creature was gone. Some red bracelet
on Miranda's hand was glowing as if it is some control device. Michal sensed some
frequency altering his very being and it was all out of his control. He was
hopeful that it would alter him for the best experience as he was now completely
out of control of his life.
Miranda
came and grabbed him from the arms. She carefully dragged Michal through the
hallways. There was nothing he could do. He couldn’t move a muscle. He just
waited like a good fan boy waiting to be taken to the next level of experience.
She hid herself from the Exodus and the Cannibals. Exodus group had their
senses working at the maximum level and she had to be really careful. She took
so much pain to make sure that her heels don’t make a big noise.
She
found some walls that were torn apart to reach a secret destination that only
few more knew. She dragged Michal to the elevator. She noted some Cannibals
that were slaughtered several minutes ago. She pushed Michal into the lift. Michal
was itching to see her panties (while wishing that she don’t have any) and he
finally got his magical moment. Then he was shocked in terror to see her undies
covered in mutated bugs!
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